[TimeStar] Whoosy? Tired? Irritable?

[Eric Ekvall]

I thought it was due the heat (we're at the peak of the so-called "dry" season and it's the hottest time of the year here) and the attendant humidity. 

I have little trouble getting to sleep, but I'm waking up more & more often at 3:30 or 4am after maybe 4 or 5 hrs of sleep and feel quite rested, and have a really hard time getting back to sleep. So I check my mail or read, and then start feeling slepy again around 6am, when it's really too late to go back and get any refreshing sleep. It's not only that I recognize snappiness and unusually short-tempered behavior in my own life, but I see manifestations in others all around me: really crazy driving, road-rage incidents, people getting edgy when they have to stand in lines (lots of lines these days for everything in the new "socialist" republic of Venezuela), and more-than-usual domestic conflict. Intolerance, in a word. 

What's most unnerving at times is the realization that I am inhabiting more and more a world that feels like it's inside my head more than a world I share with people around me. With the small group of friends who are more or less on the same wavelength as I am regarding meta-politics, geopathic stress and cosmological change, we enjoy a sort of verbal shorthand that gets right to the quick of describing and discussing what's going on in our lives. I am usually a very gregarious and empathetic person, and enjoy broaching with people I meet or who are casual friends (and not part of our small group) topics that take us to a discussion of what these earth changes mean, where we're going and not going as a civilization, the karma of western vcivilization, the challenges before us. But lately I feel like I've sort of detached in a pod from most people, as if I were saying "Well, if you haven't figured it out by now, I dunno what to tell you..." and that's troubling to me. Maybe it's my own way of expressing intolerance. Then again, I have to deal with real-life survival issues every day, and the prospects looking into the future always seem cloudy at the collective level, even when I can see a pathway forward for me and my loved ones -- and even that's not easy!

So I alternate between a pretty serene understanding/acceptance of Life as it's manifesting itself to me in all its complexity, and a very rattled, off-balance, shaky sensation that things are totally out of control and that I'm just a speck of foam on the crest of the wave. (Maybe that's also part of a serene understanding of life? :)

Eric
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  Subject: [TimeStar] Whoosy? Tired? Irritable?


  Some people -- a lot that I know -- have mentioned feeling fatigued and irritable in the last few weeks.  Not only are some people experiencing insomnia, but, after falling asleep, sleep has been strange for several people, including myself.  Instead of falling into a sound sleep, I stay in a state that feels like lucid wakefulness for several hours.  I finally realized that my body was really asleep even though I was aware of my surroundings, and that helped.

  I'm mentioning this after talking to other people who are experiencing this strange kind of sleep.  I have a few ideas but would like to hear from other people before offering my thoughts.

  The time change in April is one factor, but there seems to be more involved than just the change.  

  Krsanna


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